The grief I’ve been feeling since the unexpected passing of my mother has been hard to process… Wading through paperwork and her personal belongings has put my emotions into a tailspin!
I am not okay…
Adding to my emotional turmoil is the stress of finding a job – and quickly!
To make matters worse, my truck has decided to act up! And trust me when I say that finding a decent mechanic – within my current budget – has been like trying to find a needle in a haystack!
Moving forward has not been easy!
And there’s something else that’s been bamboozling me recently… my well-meaning friends expect me to be ‘okay,’ – when clearly, I am not!
Don’t they understand that I am mourning?!?
My grief is not a switch that I can turn on and off at random! Each person grieves in their own way and in their own time!
I understand they want me to be ‘okay.’ But sometimes their kind words do more harm than good…
For example… someone was kind enough to check in on me, asking me how I was doing. So, I told them… they basically told me that I need to be over it already!
Seriously?!?
I wanted to scream at them through the phone!
It’s times like these that I just want to close myself off from the rest of the world… yet I know that I need people in my life… even when they don’t understand that my grief comes in waves… one minute I might be fine… and the next, I feel like the rug’s been pulled out from under me!
What I am most thankful for is my faith. It keeps me going even when I don’t think I can get through another day!
Today, I’m not okay… but I will be… eventually!
Until next time,
Peace, love and safe travels!
Great Adventure Homestead 
Sheri
I liked your honesty. Grief I believe is a long process. I believe God gives strength, but the loss is deep. You are loved, if you need to talk, I will listen.
alma
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Thanks, Alma
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It’s ok to not be ok. Take a breath, take one day at a time. As Elisabeth Elliot said “Do the next thing.” You do not have to grieve the way others feel is appropriate. Sometimes life feels like too much. 💜
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“Hear my cry, O God, listen to my prayer; from the end of the earth I call to you when my heart is faint. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I, for you have been my refuge, a strong tower against the enemy. Let me dwell in your tent forever! Let me take refuge under the shelter of your wings! Selah”
Psalm 61:1-4 ESV
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Love this passage, Katherine. Thanks for sharing it! 😊
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